Traveling_Teets

Changing habits, It is always more difficult than picking habits up. It took me some time before I realized how many habits are learned, taught and even forced upon us. One of the changes I’ve made in my life recently is to live in the present, forget the future and leave the past. I am also a firm believer no goal is inaccessible. If you believe, you will achieve. That being said not being able to think of the future is scary. All my happiness seemed to be tied in to the planning and built up anticipation of my next adventure. I’ve walked through life this last year trying to live in the present, lost in the future. I did everything Society said but it didn’t make me happy. I just feel a void, am emptiness, that I can’t seem to fill. I tried new hobbies but struggled with focusing on said hobbies. It’s an odd feeling, some would say I’m depressed. I don’t feel sad or depressed, I just feel lost and alone. Trapped in my own mind, trying to feed the void. My future holds something that will be unknown. I can plan to plan but it never ever goes as planned. So, live now and worry later. Great words to hear, terrifying to follow. I’m breaking out of the cycle and making my own path not knowing my destination. My only plan is to LIVE.